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Been having a series of bad luck lately. TA MA DE!!!!!!! First of all, Andy Fong Chin Leong A.K.A Ta Su (Big Tree in chinese) ran away (chow lou). Damn angry over that. He still owe me, Kenny and Kevin (Kenny's bro) money and of coz there are a lot of others. For me it is still quite a small sum of money about rm1700.00, but its still money le. Well comparing the lost of Bi and me.....my loss is not that much. Together Bi and Kevin lost perhaps rm 34k. He ran away. I cant beleive it. His dad even printed on the Miri Daily newspaper that he wants to diswon Ta su. This was done so that we cannot ask his dad for repayment of the loan that Ta Su got from us. Ta Su is someone whom my bf and I had known since our Uni days in Curtin Miri. We hanged out alot expecially in Bi's house back in Miri, we played mahjong and lami together, laughed together, studied for our exams together, ate together.....OMG......he ran away. His parents doesn't know where is he, he had been absent at...

It was a night to remem ber. The theme for this year annual dinner is "Hollywood Night". There's the red carpet treatment, cameras and all the works. But one thing that really dampen the mood was the he avy rain. It was pouring outside. All the guests are drenched. I didn't care what happen to my dress as long as the rain stay away from my face. JPCC was great. I forgot to take a picture of the hall. The decorations were done wonderfully. The food? erm.....needs improvement. It was cold (dunno how long was it on the table, it was there when we arrived) and the portion has a lot of room f or improvement. Hehe...dun believe me....see for urself. See what I mean? Luckily, I wasn't that hungry as I had a heavy lunch that afternoon. Typical of me, picture of food before pictures of my lovely colleagues.Hehe.... Menu for the nite: Mushroom soup Fish fillet Coconut Chicken Roast Beef Japanese tofu with mushroom (Such a simple dish le) Vegetables Steam rice Orange cus...

My cousin, Siaw Chee is married to Wei on 18th March 2007. Beautiful isn't she? I haven't got all her pictures from her yet as well. I like all her wedding photos. She look so beautiful. My parents, youngest sis and me during the wedding dinner. Abbi and me during the wedding dinner. Abbi and me after the dinner. Michelle (Pretty gal from EY) and me after the dinner. The wedding dinner is quite fun, not boring at all.....you know how some uncle and aunties like to sing those old songs......and their voice....OMG. That night, there was one guy who actualy stole the show literally.....by singing horibbly off key (Well.....its not entirely my opinion). But he made me laugh...he's funny. The MC was pretty funny as well. There were some youngsters performing dances, they were quite good infact. Gonna look for them to entertain when I get married (if they are still around). My cuz, Jennifer (Siaw Chee) had been going out with her now husband Bryan (Wei) for about 10 years or so. ...

Its been so long since I last posted anything. I dun have my camera with me so there wont be any photos this time. Sigh.....the time of the year is here again.....CPA.....damn.....feel lazy to even flip the pages let alone read through it. Luckily, the test for the citizenship was released and my name is not on it.....my bro was called for the briefing though....Lots of luck to him.....pray that he will be able to have his citizenship by the end of next year......and as for me, I will be halting my CPA papers for next semester. So that I will be able to concentrate on studying for the citizenship (my malay is already bad enough, imagine me learning bahasa brunei and bahasa dalam) I should be studying right now....exam is in less than a month....and the schedule says that I should be revising the whole folder again and not starting to study.....I haven even reach half of the folder, guess this is gonna be a repeat of what happen last sem. I will end up not having time to revise and end ...

I read this in my mail today......it was written by Erma Bombeck when she found out that she was dying from cancer. IF I HAD MY LIFE TO LIVE OVER - by Erma Bombeck (written after she found out she was dying from cancer.) I would have gone to bed when I was sick instead of pretending the earth would go into a holding pattern if I weren't there for the day. I would have burned the pink candle sculpted like a rose before it melted in storage. I would have talked less and listened more. I would have invited friends over to dinner even if the carpet was stained, or the sofa faded. I would have eaten the popcorn in the 'good' living room and worried much less about the dirt when someone wanted to light a fire in the fireplace. I would have taken the time to listen to my grandfather ramble about his youth. I would have shared more of the responsibility carried by my husband. I would never have insisted the car windows be ...

Right now I am deciding whether or not to buy Nissam Silvia, S15 that my colleague's brother-in-law is selling. The asking price is a bit on the high side since the car is 3 years old.......but the good thing is that it is fully mod.....with full body kit plus spoiler and 18 inch sport rims....with blow off valve.....the test drive in it was great although I wasn't the one driving....(I was wearing heels ba so I dun feel like driving) Like I said the test drive is great but the down side of the mod suspension is the comfort.....no comfort there at all......you can practically feel every bump and pothole on the road. One might ask me how come I want to buy a second hand car at 30K....the thing is that I like the idea that it is fully mod.....another thing is that my top priority is speed....this car can offer me more speed that Toyota Celica and the best thing is that it a 3 year old car......Hmmm....but then it is pricey even with all the mod...so I will be going with Bi to loo...

Happy New Year!!!!! Its been so long since I last wrote anything. Thats coz I don't have internet access while I'm in Bandar....still considering whether to get E-speed or not. Considering their after services are not all that good and with that kind of price that they are charging every month, one would expect them to have better and faster responses to customer's complaints.Hmmm....and another thing to consider is that they do not have a dedicated line...which means that even though I am paying for 512 mb, I do not get to use all of it, I am sharing with other users as well. I cannot look for any other broadband providers as they are the only one in Brunei....talk about monopoly. So I find myself asking whether do I really need internet connection or not....I mean there are alot of hotspots around so I can just bring my humonguos laptop. Anyway.....I took some pictures yesterday with some of my new colleagues.... The view from the 12th floor was breath taking....my compan...

I started work in DST on 18 Dec 2006. DAY 1 (18.12.2006) When I first arrived in DST headquarters, I was lead to the HR department for a briefing with Hajah Aisha. She is a very friendly and helpful lady. Helping me and the other 2 girls, who are also starting on that day. She aids us in filling up the necessary forms (wah lau, there are so many forms to fill up, luckily I had filled the form requesting for security access prior to my official reporting date) She also brief us on the rules and regulation of DST and as well as the benefits once confirmed as permanent staff of DST. I have punch cards now...boo hoo !!!! She brought me to meet my Manager, David. Then David spent some time introducing me to different people in different departments. I met so many people that day and I couldn't quite remember their names yet. I hope that I won't offend people in the sense that I am not able to remember them. Hehe. David passed me a familiarisation program schedule. I am to go through...

I'm gonna start my new job in DST tomorrow......Feel excited. I hope that colleagues will be great as the same with my ex colleagues....they are lots of fun....I'm not too worried about the work scope as I am confident that I will be able to handle my job well.... So now I'm packing all my stuff. Sigh... I din know that I have that much stuff......My intention was to pack just 1 small bag of clothes.....and I ended up with lots of other stuff as well...There is my comforter, my piggie floor mat, piggie clock, my laptop, my skin care, my crystal lamp, lave lamp, tv, series, hudu and another huge bag of clusters....hehe

Ok.....I passed my CPA reporting and disclosure....hehe although I got a pass mark only, I am proud of my acheivements. This is because all in all, I only studied for like a week in total. I was so caught up in all my engagements. Congrats to Abbi, Richard, Alina, Molly......They did great too. Unlike someone else that I know....she pushes all her work to her colleagues and studied during office hours and actually lying to me saying that she did not study at all......well, in a way she got what she deserve too since she spent so much time studying. I went to the hospital to visit a family friend. My heart went out to her. She has such a kind heart but fate has other things in store for her. Her son went to a better place at a tender age of 30. How can any mother go through this kind of pain? How can they cope? Ever since the funeral, she was admitted to the hospital for 2 times. The first time was that she was too tired, she just wasn't sleeping and eating enough. The this time it ...

For these past few months, I have seen so many things happen in a relationship, both good and bad. I have this friend whose bf wanna break up with her because he thinks that she is a burden. Then they got back together and she even resigned and got another job to be near him and the last that I heard is that her bf wanna break up with her again. Saying the same thing, that he doesn't want any burden. I really think that this is not fair to my friend as she even resigned and moved to be nearer to him. Personally, I think that its his loss not my friend's loss and I really, really think that she deserves someone better. Another friend (a guy) is deliberating whether he wanna break up with his girlfriend. No matter how good his gf treats him, he will think that she has faults. This is because he no longer loves her as much as in the past. It is a very dangerous thing when one stops loving their partners. They will then start finding faults in everything. But hey, not every relatio...

If one can see into a machine and see their future, would they do it? Would you do it? The future is a mystery to all of us. How can anyone resist the temptation to see into the future? How many times have we said " If I only knew" But think about it.....if we can see into the future and know what will happen to us, when we will die, what we will be doing in 20 years time, who will we marry, things like that. But if we know everything that will happen to us, then wat fun will there be when we discover what the future has in store for us? Remember the kind of feeling when you get a lovely surprise? Or remember the disappointment when life did not go exactly the way we want it to? This are all part of life. All the ups and downs have moulded me into the person that I am today. The people that I have met in my life have influence me in different ways.

Been so long since I last posted an entry...... I was really busy....first of all my CPA exam......it's really hard to say whether I will pass this unit or not....and if I really do not pass it, I'll only have myself to blame for not studying hard enough. The results will be released on the 8th of December 2006.....Wish me luck! The damn aircon was so cold inside the examination room that I got sick...kept sneezing.....the first time that I studied till sick.....hehehe I thought that I would be free after the exam, but after that there are more things waiting for me to do both at home and as well as my office. Then Bi was going up to Bandar every saturday to work in his new company so I have to accompany him to Bandar as well......then everything just came at once.....I was in Bandar one Saturday and suddenly I got a phone call saying that I got the offer from the interview that I had with them about 2 months ago....hehe remember the accident that I had with my car on my way ba...

Yeap...I am supposed to be studying, but I gotta get some rest. My eyes are so tired. This time around, I really have no confidence that I will pass this unit. I am still so blur regarding so many parts of the unit. Lets see, instead of studying, I keep coming to my laptop and read up on so many things and I watch a lot of music videos on youtube and even uploaded one of it to my friendster. Its 'Yu ren' by Emil Chau. I like the music and as well as the lyrics, Emil is still going strong.... Then when I was studying, instead of the stuff that I was reading about flickering around in my heads, it was thoughts of Bi. I suddenly think back to the time that we went to some travelling theme park in Miri. I had a great time.....thanks Bi if you are reading this. He did a lot of things for me ever since we came back from Perth and I really appreciate it all. Now wat makes me start on all these. I just want to tell Bi that he has changed alot, for the better of course, ever since he s...

I have no mood to study for my CPA. This feelings come from different mixture of events. I have a colleague, who is totally hate-material, you know...those type that is practically screaming 'Hate me, hate me' Arghhh, she disgust me. She is the boss's pet. The thing is that she cant even do her job properly. She just pushes all her work to her colleague and pretend that she is very busy everyday. She gets to study her CPA during office hours and the thing is that she dared to call me up and enquire me of my study progress and when I said that I wasn't making much progress, she laughed and said she haven been studying as well (we all know it's so not true, ask anyone from the bandar office and they will put you straight). She also asked me how am I gonna sit for the exam.........she is such a terror in our office, since she likes to spy on everyone and reports back to the bosses. Sigh.....if she is reports actual things that really happen, so be it, but she is actual...

Oh my....I have been having a series of bad luck.....for the past few days.....lets see...first of all, my laptop kena virus (sighs, it's all my fault, I shouldn't have open the link sent by one of my msn contacts), it so so so so so frustrating.....luckily there are 2 other laptops in the house for me to use (cant live without the internet) Then second of all, today at work someone called me up and mocked at me by asking whether I have studied o not (I have not ok???) and that is not the worst thing, she (yes a she) continued to say that she too have not studied (this is so not true, there are other witness to all her fanatic studying) and she asked me (yet again) how am I gonna sit for the exam F*#K OFF!!!!!! I mean it quite literally, I am not in the best of mood today. I think that her purpose of calling me today (the call lasted for less than 1 minute) is that she wants to see how her rivals are doing and so she is judging at how much should she study to beat me and RC.....

I am feeling so lazy..... I should be studying my CPA since it is less than 2 weeks away.....but I haven been studying for the whole weekend.....I just felt that it is useless....just feel like giving up. No idea why my current mood is like that....Its not something that I can explain clearly.....its just that I am currently feeling very demotivated.......like there is nothing for me to look forward to...... Its been quite some time since I last felt this way, ever since I started work, I have never felt this lost, I have always known where I am heading towards and where I see myself before I am 30 years old but right now, I dun feel so sure of my life anymore.....So what if I pass my CPA, will my life be any better? Will Bi be able to work in Brunei so that we might be together? Ever since we came back from Perth (after we graduated), we have been geographically seperated. I should be feeling excited about the job that I went for interview a week ago. But then when I think about it, I...

I am so stressed......no one can relate to me having an exam in less than 2 weeks. Everyone had things or errands for me to do. I feel so stressed out, no one is ever supportive of the things that I do. I feel so tired. Why cant I be the one who depends on other people instead of the other way round..... Is it right to post this entry? I just feel so stressed out. I just feel like giving up. So what if I can get my CPA, so what if I excel at the results? Who is gonna look at it and be proud of me? No one!!! Becoz they are only looking at other things such as my appearance and other things that I have no idea..... This is really getting to me....doing things but never getting the credit for it.....

In some stages in our lives, there bound to be some changes in our little lives......for better or for worse? I do not know..... I received a call today that made me very happy and yet sad at the same time.......happy in the sense that I had the highest chance....out of ten people......but there seems to be a bit of problem......first my attire....I knew I should have worn a Baju Kurung (traditional malay dress), secondly is my hair (It was too blonde) and thirdly, I had worn a lot of jewelry (hmmm, perhaps it was my ling long of a anklet) The first and third is easily solved.....I can tailor make a Baju Kurung and I can remove my anklet (and/or any other jewelries on my body) ---------> The worst thing is my hair.... I adore being blonde......I adore my blonde hair.....my blonde hair suits me..........but in the name of getting a better paid job......I sacrifice being a blonde and went back to being simply dark haired girl..........SOB SOB SOB!!!!!!!! Except for the briesfest time ...

Dreams and wat do they mean???? I dreamt that Bibi neh fell down and knocked his head on the floor and that he was unconcious.....I am so worried now.....Coz I am in Miri and he is at home....I hope that he is alright....and I also dreamt that my bro knew someone who is working in the CPA of australia and he said that he could get me a copy of the exam paper.....how I wish that that is no dream.......Maybe I am stressed out by CPA and seeing how hard Bi is studying now..... Its really tough you know...studying and working at the same time....I still have about 2 weeks time to finish studying......currently I am just starting on module 3.......and I really really really feeling very tired and bored.......I kena cheated by my colleague....she told me that this unit is supposed to be easy........perhaps it was easy for her.......... ~~~~~~~~~~ I had lots of dreams and I am pursuing them right now.....everything that I do now is trying to make my dreams come true.....the one thing that I ...