Artowawa

Oh my....I have been having a series of bad luck.....for the past few days.....lets see...first of all, my laptop kena virus (sighs, it's all my fault, I shouldn't have open the link sent by one of my msn contacts), it so so so so so frustrating.....luckily there are 2 other laptops in the house for me to use (cant live without the internet) Then second of all, today at work someone called me up and mocked at me by asking whether I have studied o not (I have not ok???) and that is not the worst thing, she (yes a she) continued to say that she too have not studied (this is so not true, there are other witness to all her fanatic studying) and she asked me (yet again) how am I gonna sit for the exam F*#K OFF!!!!!! I mean it quite literally, I am not in the best of mood today. I think that her purpose of calling me today (the call lasted for less than 1 minute) is that she wants to see how her rivals are doing and so she is judging at how much should she study to beat me and RC.....

I am feeling so lazy..... I should be studying my CPA since it is less than 2 weeks away.....but I haven been studying for the whole weekend.....I just felt that it is useless....just feel like giving up. No idea why my current mood is like that....Its not something that I can explain clearly.....its just that I am currently feeling very demotivated.......like there is nothing for me to look forward to...... Its been quite some time since I last felt this way, ever since I started work, I have never felt this lost, I have always known where I am heading towards and where I see myself before I am 30 years old but right now, I dun feel so sure of my life anymore.....So what if I pass my CPA, will my life be any better? Will Bi be able to work in Brunei so that we might be together? Ever since we came back from Perth (after we graduated), we have been geographically seperated. I should be feeling excited about the job that I went for interview a week ago. But then when I think about it, I...

I am so stressed......no one can relate to me having an exam in less than 2 weeks. Everyone had things or errands for me to do. I feel so stressed out, no one is ever supportive of the things that I do. I feel so tired. Why cant I be the one who depends on other people instead of the other way round..... Is it right to post this entry? I just feel so stressed out. I just feel like giving up. So what if I can get my CPA, so what if I excel at the results? Who is gonna look at it and be proud of me? No one!!! Becoz they are only looking at other things such as my appearance and other things that I have no idea..... This is really getting to me....doing things but never getting the credit for it.....

In some stages in our lives, there bound to be some changes in our little lives......for better or for worse? I do not know..... I received a call today that made me very happy and yet sad at the same time.......happy in the sense that I had the highest chance....out of ten people......but there seems to be a bit of problem......first my attire....I knew I should have worn a Baju Kurung (traditional malay dress), secondly is my hair (It was too blonde) and thirdly, I had worn a lot of jewelry (hmmm, perhaps it was my ling long of a anklet) The first and third is easily solved.....I can tailor make a Baju Kurung and I can remove my anklet (and/or any other jewelries on my body) ---------> The worst thing is my hair.... I adore being blonde......I adore my blonde hair.....my blonde hair suits me..........but in the name of getting a better paid job......I sacrifice being a blonde and went back to being simply dark haired girl..........SOB SOB SOB!!!!!!!! Except for the briesfest time ...

Dreams and wat do they mean???? I dreamt that Bibi neh fell down and knocked his head on the floor and that he was unconcious.....I am so worried now.....Coz I am in Miri and he is at home....I hope that he is alright....and I also dreamt that my bro knew someone who is working in the CPA of australia and he said that he could get me a copy of the exam paper.....how I wish that that is no dream.......Maybe I am stressed out by CPA and seeing how hard Bi is studying now..... Its really tough you know...studying and working at the same time....I still have about 2 weeks time to finish studying......currently I am just starting on module 3.......and I really really really feeling very tired and bored.......I kena cheated by my colleague....she told me that this unit is supposed to be easy........perhaps it was easy for her.......... ~~~~~~~~~~ I had lots of dreams and I am pursuing them right now.....everything that I do now is trying to make my dreams come true.....the one thing that I ...

1. Hypocrites I really cant stand people who are hypocrites.....I know a certain someone who is a self-proclaimed thrifty person and yet this person keeps buying things that are expensive....like for example her new car, her totally expensive camera....well dun mind me.....I know there might be some counter-arguments like "Oh...maybe she need a car?" well...perhaps but then she already had a second hand car and she insisted that her parents get her a new one......and a camera..."oh perhaps she is likes to take photos?" ok...I accept that.....but why get a super expensive one when u can get one with the same specifications at a much lower price? I wouldn't mind her so much if she doesn't go around "Oh.....why do you need to buy this and that?" "Don't spent so much money" "Oh you are such a spendthrift!!! Why cant you be more like me.....save more money?" HA!!!!!!! That's why she is a self proclaimed thrifty person!!!!!! W...

So many decisions to make, so little time. Dang!!!!! Lets face it, most of us gotta make decisions from the moment that we open our eyes......well...my first decision of the day is whether I should go to work......sigh!!!!! There are so many decisions that I have to make and I am afraid that I will make the wrong decision and come to regret it......These are important decisions that will affect my whole life.....not easy as 1 2 3, you know.......How do I deal? First of all, make a list of all the pros and cons.....and wat are the possible consequences if I make this or that choice......There are so many factors involved and most importantly, a lot of people's feelings are at stake here........ ARGH!!!!! ~~~~~~~~~~ I love my work, I love my job (except for the low pay)......I love what I am doing for the moment....I am learning so much......gaining more and more experience. I truly feel that I had grown up so much in my 1 1/2 year of working.....Although I love the work that I am do...

Will you fall in love with a younger guy? How much younger one might ask.....1 year perhaps or lets make that 2 year youngers...... Someone ask me that a long long time ago....well I once had a crush on a younger friend of mine...but I think that it was only a couple of months younger but he was mature for his age.....someone did comment that he look like an uncle....hehehe.... Ok ok...back to the question.....would you fall for a younger guy......I would say that age doesn't matter.....more importantly is the mind set that you are in.....I guess that if the guy is really mature enough to handle that kind of relationship....why not??? Like I always say....never try, never know.....ok...that is over and done with...... Would you mind what ur partner's past is? (No..I dun mean that he had committed some serious offence or crime)...Would you mind that your partner had multiple partners before? (they can be multiple at the same time or just one at a time) Some would say that they w...

I got this link in my e-mail couple days ago... http://www.paulsadowski.org/BirthDay.asp 19 February 1983 Your date of conception was on or about 29 May 1982 which was a Saturday. You were born on a Saturday under the astrological sign Pisces. Your Life path number is 6 . Life Path Compatibility: You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 3, 6 & 9. You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 4, 8, 11 & 22. You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 5 & 7. The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2445384.5. The golden number for 1983 is 8. The epact number for 1983 is 16. The year 1983 was not a leap year. Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 2/13/1983 and ending 2/1/1984. You were born in the Chinese year of the Pig . Your Native American Zodiac sign is Wolf; your plant is Plantain. You were born in the Egyptian month of Parmuthy, the fourth month of the season of Poret (Emergence - Fer...

I love this song by Daniel Lee from Malaysia Idol.....it's our song...... Bi intro me to this song and I just fell in love with it......its so sweet and whenever I listen to it, it just lift me up.....sigh......just close your eyes and imagine that its ur love one singing it to you......*dreaming* ~~~~~~~~~~ I love my dog, Bibi ne, yeah I know, weird name, actually, its not that weird, I just named it after my boyfriend (well, you see, he insisted that the dog become his namesake coz he bought it as a pressie for me) He is exactly like his owner (his koko), likes to sleep, very noty, tam chiak (such a glutton). But I love his lots...muaks muaks.... ~~~~~~~~~~ I love my Ipod Nano, I just recently acquired it (Thanks Richard).......OMG......its so nice....I got the one with 4gig as the 2gig was only available in silver (no way).....I had my heart set out on the metallic pink Ipod Nano....no way am I gonna settle for a plain silver.... I got the pink arm band as well....wooo.... ~~~~~...

One of the son of my mother's close friend had passed away this morning. He is so young, only 30+. Life is so fragile...and so precious.....so enjoy ur life to the fullest. Rest in peace, you will be missed by ur family and friends alike. He was so full of life, with a kind heart and a hearty laugh.....and now he's gone..... So people, please remember that life is precious and never take it for granted. We only live once and so if there is anything that you have always wanna try...why not just try it out? (NOT stuff like smoking or doing drugs though) Another sad thing that I found out today is that I found out the reason behind the breakup of one of the most stable relationship that I knew. One party was having an affair, so that is wat prompted the 'victim' to break it up. They have one of the most stable relationship that I knew. It really hurts me to see 2 people where were in love break up and now they are taking turns to see who can hurt the other party more. (Is ...

I really gotta get tuned into my study mode right now.....man...I only have less than a month now and I am still not really concentrating on my studies......I feel so tired all the time....(I guess that I would have to watch less tv series and sleep earlier everyday)I slept at 4 last nite as I was watching this singaporean series and this morn I still wake up at the same time to go to work...damn I feel so tired and no concentration at all.... I dun understand what the heck da whole module is about.....I really cant concentrate....I need sleep.....sleep...zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Call me blind....I just cant read the 'normal' size fonts properly.... Ok...in relation to the topic....who would you choose? Your ex-bf or ex-husband whom had been unfaithful to you but promised to change and he did prove to you that he is a changed man? Or the your new admirer whom is very dedicated to you? Seems like an easy choice isn't it? I guess that most people would definitely choose the new admirer since he is very dedicated and who is to say that the ex would not make the same mistakes again? But then if you think carefully, what about the memories that you have with your ex? What about all the things that you shared? The things that he had done for you? The very thing that made you fell in love with him....Would you be touched and forgive him for his mistakes? On the other hand, here is a brand new admirer that is very dedicated and has not yet (I will say not yet but then again he might never be unfaithful) been unfaithful to you? Are you ready to let go of you...

Abbi came over for Mid-autumn festival on Friday night.....hehe...it is nice to have Bi over again....its been quite some time since he last came over.....we had dinner....then just hang around for a while...there's nothing that we like better than just hanging out together....just enjoying each other's company.......then later on we went to watched 'Barnyard'....it was a pretty silly animation......but its enjoyable with lots of its own funny moments........we basically have the whole OGDC cinema to ourselves...... It was weird.....maybe there something wrong with the internal memo or something ...coz their time doesn't match with the time printed in the newspaper.....so we went strolling around OGDC......just walking to the other car park where there seems to be lots of sport car (mind u...I said looks like nia)......then we went to the playground.....playing on the swing....bi hanging like a monkey........its been so long since we last did things like that..... I...

Regrets There are some things that I regretted not doing....sometimes it really bugs me....sigh....but then it's too late now.... Memories with Joy Past memories going around in my head....time really passes by very fast....lemme see....primary school is a blur bit I can remember my high school very well.....all my classmates, my teachers, all the fun times that we had together....and then I went to work for a year.....alot of things happen in that year as well....I got my first mobile phone...Nokia 8850 and I bought it with my own money....it costs me BND 1187 at that time.....it's so expensive....I wonder why did I even consider buying it in the first place.... Then I went to Curtin, Miri. That was even better...I got to know a lot of friends, good friends that I cannot forget and we are still good friends till today (I miss you all so much)....there's Alina, Winnie, Tian Lun, Mark, Rigel, Laurence, Davis and last but not least Kenny....hehe..it feels weird calling him Ke...

There are so many questions running through my head.....these questions are actually addressed to me by my friend 1. Would I mind if my partner earns less than me? The answer is that it really depends on the situation. Look at it this way, if my husband chose to stay in a low pay job becoz he is afraid of more work responsibilities in a higher paid job, then yes, I do mind. But if he had already tried his best, then I wont mind. As long as he is not trying his best and that it is not his intetion to stay on at the low pay job, then I guess that is enough for me 2. Would I mind if I have higher qualifications that my partner? Call me old fashion but yes I guess that I do mind. Simple as that..... 3. Would I mind if my partner comes home smelling of motor oil and dirty finer nails (you know..with all the works)? Hmmm....this is a tricky question....I dun think that I will mind...that much....see he is earning a living and he is dirty becoz he is working and he had no other choice but to ...

A lot of things happened today...mostly bad....things that a particular person did had hurt me deeply....my eyes can barely open as I barely had enough sleep last nite.....perhaps it can never be done....this type of pain cannot be described in words. Just that you might wished that there are physical pain inflicted onto your flesh rather than this...