There have been so many instances where I came by my blog and I want to blog about so many things in my life. But there were also as many instances where I just gave up and kept my thoughts to myself. I am 34 years old in 2017 and soon I will be another year older. I am getting more jaded every year because of the things that I have seen. I also feel aimless. I feel as if I am meant to do something more than this. I do not want to wake up and go to work Monday to Friday and so happy when its Friday and becoming depressed when its Sunday (coz the next day would be Monday) It's not like I want to be a millionaire or something like that. Even though money is still important (Hey, I still gotta eat, cant very well grow my own food), it no longer hold the same position as compared to a few years ago. I do not care very much for status as well. Its all so fleeting. After being married in 2013, I am still childless at the moment. Its not by design but I dun mind it all that m...
Bibineh passed away on 7th October 2016. He was with me for 15 years. He was a gift from Bi when we first started dating. Bibineh was not only a dog or a pet to me. He was part of my family. He loved me unconditionally. I felt guilty as he was living with my parents and not me. I was not there to accompany him all the time. I did not spend enough time with him. His days before he past away was really sad. In a way, I am glad that he is no longer suffering. He was blind, deaf and could no longer walk and instead, he was rolling around. He was also having seizures. I took him to the vet every weekend and I asked the vet if I should have him put down. The vet said, there is no need to put him down as he wont have long to live as well. I tried my best to take care of him during his last days. I went back to visit him every weekend. My mom said that he doesn't want to eat anything when I am not there. But everytime I am back with him, he would try and roll to me. Even ...