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Once and for all !!!!!!!

Ever since the other day, someone told me about the principles of Tao, I am trying to forgive those who had crossed me.

But sometimes its easier said than done. Especially when they keep coming back with more troubles and problems.

Its never ending. I wanna forget and move on with my life (apparently they dun have one).

I dunno whether the person that I am referring to reads my blog or not. If you are reading this and wondering whether I am talking about you, probably I am talking about you.

You can say anything you want about me. As long as I know that my conscience is clear, I cant be bothered. (as I keep telling myself that I should not be bothered about them)

But they are relentless. Say that I have attitude problem towards you. Did you ever wonder why? What about the way that you treated me? Good ho? The way you talked to me, the way you talked behind my back, calling me whatever names.

Sorry ho! I am not someone who is two faced. (unlike someone) When I dun like someone, I just wont be bothered to keep in touch nor talk to you. That is how I am. Why should I pretend that I like you? I don't like pretenses. I just don't.

I am not someone who can just forget just like that. I need time. I cant pretend.

So for those who like people to pretend that they like you but instead talk bad things about you behind your back, get the hell away from me.

I don't need these non positive 'qi' in my life.

I really have enough.

They say the things that I do are wrong. What about yourself? Have you ever stop and think about it? About the things that you have done?

I used to have so much resentment against these people.

But now, after 5 weeks, I can control my emotion better and not get so upset. (Its harmful to my health) I want to write this down once and for all. Get it over with and get on with my life.

I tell myself everyday that there is a God, he is up there looking down on us on every single thing that we do. As long as my conscience is clear, I need not care about what they think and say about me. People whom I care about believes in me and that is the most important issue.

There might be repercussions from writing this post but I feel that it is important to me. So if anyone resent me for writing this.........they can all go eat shit. (this is already very polite liaw)

I will show that I have strength. Because of all the encouragement from family and friends.

God will not give me a test that is beyond my capabilities.
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cacatkia™ said…
thats what i wanted to write for certain people too!

Jia you!!
11:33 PM
Artowawa said…
Thanks cacatkia.

Jia you for you too!!!!
11:03 AM
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