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A million little pieces

The following is an excerpt from the book 'A million little pieces' by James Frey.

I don't want to be alone. I have never asked to be alone. I fucking hate it. I hate that I have no one to talk to. I hate that I have no one to call, I hate that I have no one to hold my hand, hug me, tell me that everything is going to be all right. I hate that I have no one to share my hopes and my dreams with. I hate that I no longer have any hopes or dreams, I hate that when I cream, and I scream bloody murder, that I am screaming into emptiness. I hate that there is no one to hear my scream and that there is no one to help me learn how to stop screaming. I hate that what I have turned to in my loneliness lives in a pipe or a bottle. I hate that what I have turned to in my loneliness is killing me, has already killed me, or will kill me soon. I hate that I will die alone. I will die alone in my horror.

Just to share a little about the author James Frey and the book 'A Million Little Pieces'. James Frey was an alcoholic as well as an drug addict. The book is about his six weeks in rehab. He was at the age of 23 at that time. He had been an alcoholic for ten years and a crack addict for three years.

I have not finished reading the whole book yet. From what I had read so far, I really like the book. You can feel the desolation, the loneliness, his pain.

When I was reading that paragraph, I can totally relate to what the author is trying to express. Not that I am an alcoholic nor am I addicted to drugs. No one wants to be alone. When we are happy, we want to be able to share this happiness to our family and friends. When we are sad, we want our family and friends to share our sadness and burden as well. Like the saying goes, a burden shared, is a burden halved.

I have been feeling quite emotional for these past few nights. Must be those damn Gregorian chants that I have been listening to. It helps me relax my mind though. Bought a wardrobe and it arrive last night. Had been busy cleaning up my room. Whew!!!! so much dust everywhere.

Gonna watch Surfs up tonite. Hope its nice. Been hoping to watch Alone, heard that its a very very scary movie.....suits me just fine
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