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Melancholy

When the whole world seems to be unhappy with me, I tell myself that I am happy with myself (well more or less la). My self worth is not determined by others. Its determined by myself. If I see myself worth less than what it is, then why should anyone else assume more?

I could use a little more self esteem right now. More encouragement and less criticism. But hey, life is not perfect. I know that. But one can hope right?

I haven been able to sleep easily for the past few months. I would wake up in a space of few hours. I always wake up feeling more tired than ever. I have insomnia. Its so terrible. Even if I manage to sleep, I am always dreaming. I went to the doctor the other day to get something for my migraine and the DR said that my blood pressure is a bit on the border line. That was a surprise....not really coz I know that a good night sleep is very important and without a good nite sleep in months, I guess my health is the first to deteriorate. So yeah, gonna sleep early tonite without doubt.

I am just feeling a bit under the weather. Mood right now is a bit melancholy.

I hate it when people complains about their life and yet do nothing to change it. Now I am one of those people. So I am gonna do something about whichever part of my life that I don't like or unhappy about. I have a plan once again. And it feels good, to have a direction.
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